NERD RAAAAAAAAAGE!

The Listening Gravestone - An Ode to Michel Blanc of Macross Frontier

2009-08-17T21:13:06Z

It's almost been one year since episode 20 of Macross Frontier, since Michel passed away. I wrote this up in his memory, since his death touched me far more than I thought it would.

The night sky was overcast, but the cemetary seemed to glow beneath the thick cloud cover. Each grave marker, from plaques to tombstones, radiated an eerie light despite the only source of immediate light coming from the swinging lantern that moved up the gravel path. The warm glow only barely caressed the edges of each block of stone as it passed rows upon rows of markers, each dictating a battle from the recent war. Further up ahead were the more recent graves, noted for the fresh soil that lay overtop.

Michel’s was just before, and Altoh turned right at the fork in the path, taking him to the graves that had just recently been given a fresh layer of sod. Some had flowers leaning up against the tombstones, others had placed fake flowers inside the urns, which attached to the plaques. It was a silent walk, but after ten or so more rows of graves, Altoh took a left down another path. Another three rows, and Michel Blanc’s grave was just a step off the path. The grass was wet under Alto’s dress shoes, a light mist covering the small gray tombstone that had the man’s name enscribed along with his birth and death year. Below it, the phrase “In loving memory, a wonderful friend and trusted colleague” was enscribed with ribbons encircling it.

“It’s been a year,” Alto muttered, his eyes never leaving his friend’s name, “And I just wanted to say thank you. You gave me a chance to see clearly. I owe you a lot… Let’s make it up when we see each other again.”

Alto bent forward and placed small bouquet of fake lilies in front of the grave. He stared at the stone for a long while, not a single coherant thought passing through, but rather feeling the emotions that had been locked away since Michel’s death. The gripping sorrow that threatened to pry its fingers into his chest cavity and rip it open, teeth gnashing hungrily as the long tongue lapped up his blood; that was what he thought it felt like.

He only felt Klan’s presence beside him when she touched his shoulder with her hand, her body’s weight leaning on him as her forehead pressed to his shoulderblade. He hadn’t even heard her come down the path.

“You know, he never told me what his favourite flower was.” Klan said, more to herself than to Alto. The quiver in her voice hung in the air like a swelling heat.

“He never told me either.” Alto said simply, only wishing for the heat to dissipate.

“He never told anyone anything. That was just Michel’s way of dealing with things,” Klan took her weight off Alto and moved to stand beside him, “But look what good that did.”

Alto gave her a long side glance, half out of pity and annoyance. “Klan, you know he did it to protect you. Without it…” You would be the one in the ground, Alto wanted to say.

“I know… I know. I just want to blame someone, something. Anything at all. It’s been a year, but it still feels like yesterday.”

“You’re not the only one who feels like that.”

Alto didn’t have to say anything else. The tear rolling down his cheek spoke more words than any sentence he could ever muster.

Michel was dead. Sometimes it didn’t feel like that. It only made it hurt that much more the second, third and fourth time around when he realized that nobody would pick up on Michel’s old phone number; Alto had been so used to speed dialing him for their study sessions that when he realized what he’d done, he’d thrown the phone across the room and cursed himself wildly.

Standing across from his best friend’s grave, despite the body not being beneath his feet, made that feeling seem too real; far too real for him to comprehend. There would be no more surprise “study sessions”, no more after-school dinners and no more late-night movie marathons. No one else who could tease him one second, and scold him the next.

The era of his childhood had ended, and the era of his adulthood was just beginning. All because of one person.

He could thank Michel a thousand times for this, but gravestones didn’t have ears.

LESBIAN MACROSS DOUJIN, WHAT?

2009-08-12T18:14:19Z

I haven't been very active as of recently, and I apologize to how many people who have wondered. ~~So not very many, hurrrrrr.~~

Anyway, an update of sorts. I've decided to take on the challenge of a short Macross Frontier doujin focusing around the foursome of Sheryl, Nanase, Ranka and Klan. It should be out, roughly, in September. If anybody is good with greyscaling or doing tones for mangas - of if you know of someone who does, get 'em in contact with me! Would be greatly appreciated. <3

Ciao~!

Ryo&Ribbons

No real reason, just an excuse to fill ten minutes.

2009-04-02T00:54:02Z

You ever get the feeling you should be doing something, KNOW you should be doing something but never do it?

Yeah.

That's my life right now. There's a bibliography I should probably work on but I don't. There's also some history homework I should work on, but I didn't want to damage the pages of the textbook since my bag leaks when it's raining.

Huergh. Not cool.

Also just wanted a lame reason to use this icon. It's from an awesome doujin I got. Very shiny. (It's actually Ali from 00, betcha couldn't tell, huh?)

New Years Recolection... and other unmentionable stuff!

2009-01-03T01:40:41Z

New Years was brought in with bikinis, chocolate, APH and lots and lots of orgies. Seriously.

Well, maybe not all too seriously, but you get the point, right?

...Right?

PSYCHE!

Before heading out for my New Years eve shenanigans, I was on IRC talking to a couple of the guys. They were convinced that A) I was really a man and B) I was instead really spending the entire night drinking myself into a hazy stupour because the idea of me having some form of social life was appauling to them. Plus, my ride was coming late and I was still on, so I didn't have much proof of the "party" I was supposed to be attending until I got a call from the driver. She said a traffic accident had slowed her down, and that she'd be there in ten. Cue me running upstairs like some crazed kangaroo looking for a hair brush and my coverup while my guyfriend, Andrew, stares on in bemusement at my crazed state.

Ten minutes later, after a wary slide down a set of icy steps, I'm shoved into the middle seat in a rickety car, girls on all my sides giggling away. All the way back to the party apartment we're discussing Hetalia and anything else that sporatically comes to mind. Once stepping outside, we fasten our jackets tightly around ourselves and carry our pillows and blankets inside (because proper planning is for sissies) and promptly make ourselves at home.

The rest of the night is a bit of a blurr. We watch the final episode of Royal Canadian Air Farce with great smiles on our faces, listen to Josee rant about Hetalia, listen to me rant to Shannon about something Gundam related, RPG sillytalk, more shenanigans and whatnot. Oh yes, and drinking - which is probably why the night is so hazy. Somewhere in my stupour I demanded to wear a red bikini top - the one I'd be forced into over summer holidays, and promptly did so to bring in the New Years!

And no, it did NOT come off. Perverts.

Anyway, afterwards, when everyone was driven home, we all talked for a bit more and then toddled off to bed. Logan, the host, had previously lugged a matress from him and his girlfriend's cosplay room (I ONLY WISH I WAS HALF AS COOL AS HIM SO I CAN HAVE A ROOM DEDICATED TO COSPLAY) for us to sleep on ~~and have an orgy~~, and then we were bid goodnight. Of course, from eating so many chocolates earlier, we were wired and talked until 4am. Again, mostly about Hetalia and Gurren-Lagann.~

Woke up around 7-8am, which was fairly surprising, considering I usually wake up around 6. It was a good change, never the less. Us three girls (well, two, since Shannon was a bum and slept) talked about anything that came to mind until Logan decided to dogpile the bed in his PJs. The rest of the morning consisted of more geek talk and me helping Logan make breakfast (EGGS IN A CUP, FUCK YEAH). We all sat on the matress and watched the Gurren-Lagann OAV (all five of us big fans) and had a good laugh over it. Later on, we watched The Gamers and the sequel movie Dorkiness Rising.

So, all in all, a pretty damn good New Years. Geeky fun all around, can't wait to do it all over again! :D
Note to self: DnD this Saturday. Bring beer.

How long as it been?

2008-11-28T01:50:36Z

Too long since an entry has been provided, I say!

Stuff has been going on, too much to type out right now I believe, but that shall be kept in mind for a later date. Started reading Dracula (really good), started watching Kamen Rider Kiva (really good and UNF NAGO), started watching Gundam 00's second season (winwinwinwinwinwin) and Casshern Sins alongside it. Grade 12 has been nothing but a huge ball of stress, but I hope to get back into the game once Christmas break rolls around. It's been feeling like December since Hallowe'en ended - can you believe it? I surely can't.

Got a tablet from a friend during the summertime and have been playing with it ever since. The little bugger is quite hard to master, but I'm improving with it none the less. And I'm started to get interested in mixed media, specifically the photo/painting kind.

What a lame update. XD Must post fics here later on when I get the chance.

Gorgeous Delicious Deculture!

2008-04-12T17:59:37Z

Nyan nyan nyan nyan nihao nyan!
Gorgeous Delicious Decultuuuure~~~

OH MY GOD I'VE BEEN SINGING THAT FOR THE PAST TWO HOURS AND IT WON'T LEAVE MY HEAAAAAAAAD
RAAAAAAAAGE!

Yesterday had to be the biggest shitakular day in my mortal life. A good friend of mine whom I've gotten along with suddenly decided based off of one conversation we had to suddenly denounce me to an aquaintance. Now, as of recently life has been stressful for me, so I blew up on her over something that really wasn't her fault. On top of that it was my time of the month, so at the time I was pretty moody. I told her not to take it seriously, that I was just feeling down as of recently, and she handled it pretty well.

Next thing I know she's telling me she took it seriously, talked to her best friend in Toronto and he agreed with her that she needed to back away from me. She was outrightly AVOIDING me the entire week, and she's telling me "distancing myself from you is different from avoiding you", which if you think about for a second, is the exact same thing, just that "distancing" sounds more polite and less repulsive. She goes on to say that what she's doing is right, and thus putting me in the wrong by default.

I took it well, but I'm still pissed that she went and assumed all these things and consulted her best friend rather than talking to me after I calmed down.

The second notion to make yesterday shitakular was after my math test. I'm not very good in math and I've never been, and I thought I'de do better in the mixed course rather than the academic. But, due to doubting my mark, I asked my teacher after I finished my test if the mark I was getting was average. He told me no, and that I should probably drop down to college. He then goes on to tell me that he "apparently" told me on the first test to drop down, and I replied back that no, he never wrote any such thing on my first test. His response was "Oh. Well I should have." And he walked right by me with not an ounce of sensitivity in his voice.

Considering that I knew he saw me tearing up and crying a bit during the test, and to add on to the previous escapade with the friend, I was feeling pretty shitty at that point. I went to my locker, and said friend was there. She saw me, shrugged her shoulders and walked away.

I feel better today, but I just wanted to rant this here to get it off my chest. I'm sorry if I caused anyone to bang their head into their monitor due to teenage drama. Blegh.

On a lighter note, yay for new icons! I made them myself. :D
They're mostly of the new series that just came out (Code Geass R2, Macross F, Gundam 00~) but I plan to make some for Wagaya no Oinarisama. >:3

Frustraition Rant~

2008-01-27T17:10:38Z

I don't usually bitch at people; honestly, I consider myself to be fairly calm, however I do like debates and maybe pushing the limit a bit. It's just in my nature, I suppose. But sometimes I wish that running mouth of mine would come back and thus, this is what this rant is about.

I joked to one of my older guyfriends about how he was a virgin, and he took it pretty badly. Not to mention I did this in front of other people, and right now I'm banging my head on the nearest hard surface wondering why I mentioned it in the first place.

My mother claims it just runs in the family, that she did it too and it ended up with her losing a few friends. I've done it as well, making senseless comments which usually ends up with me accidentaly severing what trust I had in between good friends and I. It's an annoyance, and I've often wondered why I do it.

But I came down to the simple conclusion that it was just a part of what I am. I've honestly tried to control it, but it keeps slipping out anyway. And it's frustraiting, because I'm sitting there afterwards wondering why I even THOUGHT it was right in the first place. I wish I could just appolagize and blame it on someone else, but I know it's not going to be that easy. It's never that easy, isn't it?

I know I have the capabilities of being smarter, better, but I never take it because my current demeanor seems to overpower any will I once had to progress, to become more. Maybe it has to do with my childhood, perhaps. I only truly got 'real' friends in my middle-school years, and anything before that is me being barely able to grasp the concept of friendship, since I merely saw it as a way to bring satisfaction to myself. To assure myself of something I barely understood in the first place.

Because of this I feel as though I'm behind since I lost out on the many years of practice that many other children, my own friends, had. And it's frustraiting, because I want to progress and I can't seem to grasp that one bar above me.

That aside, I feel a bit better after writing that down. =_=;; It's been bugging me for a while, and what happened last night really brought everything into perspective for me. Now, for all that studying I've been meaning to do...

So on a 'yayhappynote', here's a condensed list of all the crap I still need to watch/finish! 8D

Simoun
Ookiku Furikabutte
Mobile Suit Gundam (1979)
Mobile Suit Gundam 00
Tokyo Marble Chocolate
D.Gray-man
Ai no Kusabi (yaoi)
Baccano!
Magical Lyrical Girl Nanoha
Heroic Age
Hana Yori Dango (Live Action)
Sh15buya (Live Action)

And all the stuff I still need to start watching after I finish all of this:

- (Spring 2008) Macross Frontier
- (Spring 2008) Code Geass R2
- (Spring 2008) Kurogane no Linebarrels (Linebarrels of Iron)
- (Spring 2008) Wagaya no Oinarisama
- (Spring 2008) Neo Angelique Abyss
- Gunbuster & Diebuster
- Dancougar
- Space Runaway Ideon
- Captain Harlock (1978 TV series)
- Majin Tantei Nōgami Neuro

So as you can see, erm, I got a full list. 8D Lots of fun awaits me. Suggest titles too, since I love finding new stuff to watch. ;3

You know what?

2008-01-01T20:21:34Z

It's insanely amusing when people don't comment on your journal, so it feels like your talking to yourself.
WHICH IS AN AWESOME FEELING, MIGHT I ADD.

Anyway, Happy New Years and all dat shizz. 83

By the way, Pat, if you ever read this: I'm hiring right now for a part-timer, it has a good pay so I think you might like it. I'm sorry about you getting fired on New Years, but it had to be done. For the lulz.

I gamed all New Years by playing .hack//G.U. "Redemption" with two friends, one who has an obsession with the 'Jar o' Dirt' techno remix song and the other who... well, it was Tes. No explanation needed. We made a seperate file so we could try giving the flower gift card to all the guys to see which one would admit their love for us.

We tried Kuhn, we said we loved him, he turned us down. D:
Silabus is adorable like that and had all of the sexual offerings we made for him fly over his head.
We didn't even try Gaspard.
And Endrance would have said he loved us even if we kicked him with steel-toed boots.

So in short, it was like a fucking BL dating sim. I love you .hack, I truly do.
NOW MAKE ONE WITH PR0N AND THEN WE'LL REALLY BE GETTING SOMEWHERE.

Merry Boxing Day!

2007-12-26T15:17:21Z

Merry belated-XMAS everyone!

I just feel like bragging about my new iPod, which took me a few years to get. Also got me sum delicious Fushigi Yuugi and earings "inspired" by Chevalier D'Eon (fleur de lise, go figure). Also got a Go board, which my mom is insisting I play whenever I get the chance. No .hack, ho hum. Will have to buy it when the money gets good.

...As in, like, tommorow. Because I *NEED* volume two. xD But on the plus side, I bought myself a present, which was a $40 figurine of Nono from Diebuster. It was so worth it. ;_;

So to make things short, Merry Christmas everyone~

PS: GRAHAM ACRE IS FUCKING AMAZING. I DO NOT LIE.

Christmas Lists are for sissies

2007-12-16T16:34:06Z

What I want for Christmas...

- A cake. WHICH IS NOT A LIE, BY THE WAY, BUT VERY DELICIOUS AND I MUST EAT IT.
-A sewing machine. For cosplay and other means of bastardization.
-Gunbuster DVD, for the win. And then Diebuster, because I'm CLANGCLANGCLANG for Nono. ;__;
-A big box of chocolates.
-Silabus.
-Graham Acre.

Now you know what to get me for Christmas, in case you were wondering.

Also, see icon if you don't have the resources to get what's on the list. A CHAR can be anywhere, and anyone. Just look for the man in red who is going 3x faster with lolis, that should be him. If not, Harry Ord is always a nice alternative.
AND GAMLIN KIZAKI! GAAAAAAAAAMLIIIIN!
~~I still can't believe Mylene turned down his marriage proposal. ARGH.~~

Let me stick it in your pooper.

2007-11-24T03:51:55Z

You know, I wish I could have gotten off my ass two weeks ago to write up the whole she-bang regarding my experience at AC-Cubed this year.

But guess what?
I'm a lazy bum.
:D

ON A BRIGHTER NOTE, I BOUGHT A PLUSHIE OF SOUGOU OKITA FROM GINTAMA. He's on my bed right now beside Hitsugaya having a little plushie makeout session as we speak. And no, I will NOT send you a copy of the tape. If anything, I'm now even more determined to buy the Hijikata one so I can be all "HURHURHUR, PLUSHIE PORN TIEM!" and smush all of them together to satisfy my twisted imagination.

Also recently I've invented a new original character. Now, many of you will drop off right here going "OH NO, MARY SUES AHOY!" and go to jack off on your varied assorted pr0n you have on your computer. I KNOW you have some there. >:3
What makes him special is that the only name I could think for his character was Yom Kippur. Yeah. 'Nuff said. I bet the Jewish community will sue me or something if I try to copywright it if I ever get my story published.
But he looks like a Yom Kippur too... D:

OH, AND GUESS WHAT?
A MASS TOTAL OF TWO PEOPLE RECOGNIZED ME AT THE CON. :D
It was awesome. One of my friends I haven't seen in forever went "HEEEEEEI!" and insisted I sit on her lap, the other was a girl in AA who jumped over her table in an instant to get my picture. o_o

Blah!

2007-10-25T19:22:10Z

ALRIGHT GUYS, IT’S TIME FOR A STEREOTYPICAL EMO LIVEJOURNAL RANT!

Just recently, I realized that I had liked a guy I had known since July.This being only a few days prior to realizing he had asked out one of my friends, and thus currently I am feeling quite crap.

Now, the catch is is that he’s 26, and I am only merely 16. Ten year difference, though I get mistaken for being in University quite a bit. I also act mature for my age, so I automatically get the assumption that I’m legal for many. Oh ho, no, currently I am J-A-I-L-B-A-I-T.

However, I’m not the kind to get into anything bad. I don’t drink, smoke, do drugs or act like a dipshit in school. I have morals damnit and I’ll be sticking with ‘em to my grave. But it wasn’t like me to automatically like someone, so I thought it would be a special time if I asked him.

And as I said above, he liked a friend of mine for a while as he got to know her for the past few months. However, this friend is 24. She’s closer in age to him, so of course that plays a roll. I guessed her name randomly when I tried to pry info from him, and he went on and told me that she was a sweetie pie, how cute she was and I felt like throwing up in my mouth a bit. He’s a good guy, just that hearing someone you fancy rant on about someone ELSE would make anyone feel queasy.

So now I’m sort of… blah. Don’t know where my emotions are right now. I might work on my cosplay and hopefully finish it before the weekend.

Just had to get that off my chest for now. =_=;; *flop*

On a lighter note, yay no homework~

My birthday in four days! Whoo!

2007-10-07T14:13:52Z

My birthday is in teh four days; and ironically its getting celibrated on Thanksgiving. As my brother says "IT'S IRONIC, BECAUSE WE'RE NOT THANKFUL YOU'RE HERE!"

Oh ho.
Someone's getting their head rammed in the kitchen cubbords.

On a brighter note, I'm starting my cosplay AGAIN. God, I'm starting to believe I won't get it done in time. But I have the fabric for the coat down, as well as the pattern and the pants. The wig I plan to get sometime next weekend, as well as make the prop dual daggers.

...AAARRRRGGHHHH! I only have three weeks to do all of this. Not to mention go out and buy the fabric for the underside of the coat as well as my shirt. And binding tape. D:

Shakespearean Tongue [a suboshi x amiboshi oneshot]

2007-09-09T14:06:36Z

Title: Shakespearean Tongue
Series: Fushigi Yuugi
Pairing: Suboshi x Amiboshi (otherwise known as Boshicest)
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Oneshot. Suboshi and Amiboshi reinact a scene from MacBeth, with some interesting results.
Author's Notes: OH IF SHAKESPEARE KNEW WHAT WE WERE DOING TO HIS PLAYS. D:

Also, this is the revised and edited version from the one posted on Fanfiction.net, however I went and edited that one too so there's little difference in between. For all the people over at fy_yaoi.

Shakespearean Tongue
By Ryocha (retro_ryo)

"Pass the drink, Aniki," Suboshi yawned, reaching one lazy arm upward from the floor to accept the glass of Coke his twin was offering him. Once grabbing it, he brought it back down to the floor, placed it beside his homework. He then was once again was brought back into the world of Shakespeare, one of few worlds he hoped to encounter again once he finished high school.

The elder of the twins blinked curiously at his younger brother lying on the floor, on his stomach, beside his bed, inside HIS room. Suboshi always had a tendency to never use his room when it concerned doing homework, and Amiboshi dully noted why.

He’s not as mentally capable as you are, Ami-chan, his mother would always coo to him as though she were talking to a young child, So please be nice to him. All he wants his your help, right?
Sitting down on the edge of his bed, Amiboshi looked over his shoulder to the sad amount of homework he had dumped on him tonight. Blue orbs scrutinized the situation he had been placed in so unjustly; he knew Suboshi was placed into college courses because of his marks, but it gave him no right to stop him from doing his own homework!
"Bro’," Suboshi chided to bring his identical twin from his miserable thoughts, "Can you help me with this one line?" Identical cobalt blue eyes stared almost ashamed at Amiboshi, the elder sighing irritantly and slid off the bed with a thump and leaned over on all fours. "Alright," he muttered.
"What line do you need help with?" He asked Suboshi, the younger one delibrately ignoring the snappy tone his brother was using. He pointed to a line in the play script, frowning a little.
"Right there, I’m not sure how you’re supposed to say that line." Suboshi continued slowly, his legs beginning to kick back and forth rhythmicly. Amiboshi had his interest caught, blinking twice before opting to sit cross-legged beside his twin.
"Are you…" he paused briefly to take a sip from his own coke can which was resting on his nightstand, "…are you supposed to perform this in front of the class?"
The younger of the twins nodded dumbly, eyes focused eagerly on the playscript.
Amiboshi then let his eyes stray to the line his twin had motioned to, and couldn’t help but laugh. "You’re playing Lady Macbeth?" He chuckled.
"Oh be quiet!" Suboshi blushed, embaressed, and looked away with a pout on his face, his leg kicking momentarily stopping. "It’s just for this scene, and then we switch roles—Hey, stop laughing!" But the more mature of the two gave in to the mental image of his twin donning a large Victorian ballroom gown, hair primped and face smothered in makeup begging himself, the elder, as Macbeth to go and kill King Duncan.
The laughter then soon died down to an awkward silence. Suboshi snorted, and took a sip from his drink.
"So, will you help me or not, oh educated drama student?" The harsh clink of the can hitting the floor accented the younger one’s tone of voice. Amiboshi closed his eyes and sighed.
"Alright, I’ll help." He pushed upward using the bed as leverage, getting to his feet a second quicker than his twin. Suboshi pushed off the floor in the same manor, one hand holding the dog-eared script.
"So, where should I start off—"
"I start off first… uhm, I guess I could just start here, and that’s when Macbeth comes in." Suboshi muttered to himself briefly, overlooking the flow of the lines. Amiboshi meanwhile, was propping his chin on his twin’s shoulder, finding a comfy spot between the shoulder blade and a warm, fully exposed neck. He sighed in content, reading along with his younger brother to absorb the lines fully.
"It’d be easier if you started off here," a finger pointed at a spot in the script, and the younger one nodded. "That way you could just skip the scene with the messenger and go right into your monologue."
Another brief, almost unfelt nod, slow and strained.
Cobalt orbs then took time to observe the stance Suboshi had taken once he had rested his head on the warm muscular part straddling the shoulder and the neck.
His back stiffened.
His eyes seemed more transfixed.
His breathing became shallower.
Amiboshi frowned slightly at this. So his twin brother still had some of those long lost feelings he was told to throw away a year ago. It wasn’t as if he himself, the elder and more logical of the two, didn’t want to continue and return those feelings; it was because he knew it was morally wrong and would weigh heavy on his conscience.
Still, even the simple action of having his head on Suboshi’s shoulder brought back such feelings. Immediately, he removed his head and he swore he heard a whimper of remorse leave Suboshi’s lips.
A small ache began to form in Amiboshi’s cavity.
"Well, I have my lines down," a soft voice imminated from the elder, "How about you?" He crossed his arms and watched his twin turn around, eyes glased.
"Mmm, I got mine too, aniki. So… we should just go?"
"Uh huh."
Throwing the playscript onto the bed clumbsily, Suboshi took two sharp steps away from the bed and turned on his heels to face his twin again. Amiboshi knew that both of them had a flare for drama, and that his twin was now trying to submerge himself into the roll of the desprate, evil Lady Macbeth. He himself now was trying to put himself into the roll of Macbeth, Thane of Cawdor and Glamis, and soon to be the King of Scotland.
Both of them opened slightly glased cobalt eyes, their play beginning.
"The raven himself is hoarse," Suboshi began, taking a step to the side with a flick of his hips. Amiboshi twitched. "That croaks the fatal entrance of Duncan under my battlements." The low growl of remorse tinged the sentence like a dagger being dipped in to blood.
Flittering hands then moved to his chest, grabbing it as though trying to rip through it with his nails. Suboshi’s face twisted into a grimace of pain, hissing in content, "Come, you spirits, that tend on mortal thoughts, unsex me here, And fill me from the crown to the toe top-full of the dirtiest cruelty!"
He then motioned to his arms, fingers running up the blue veins that tinted and pulsed beneath tender skin. A small smile graced Suboshi’s lips, and Amiboshi felt something irk inside him. "Make thick my blood; Stop up the access and passage to remorse that no compunctious visitings of nature shake my fell purpose, nor keep peace between the effect and it!" From his wrists to his chest did Suboshi’s hands move, fingers twitching as they ran down the firm chest, nails dragging down the fitting shirt. Another irk inside his cavity; Amiboshi sighed, noticing he had been holding his breath.
"Come to my women’s breasts,
"Take my milk for gall, you murdering minsters, Wherever in your sightless substances You wait on nature’s mischief." An eery, almost psychotic smile slowly spread across identical features, the elder twin watching in interest as Suboshi moved to grab his elbows with his hands, his head bowed.
"Come, thick night," Shaggy bangs enshrouded madman blue orbs as Suboshi raised his head, the grip on his elbows loosening so only the fingers graced the showing skin below his t-shirt. "Pale thee in the dunnest smoke of hell That my knife see not the wound it makes."
One hand dropped to his side, balled into a fist as if holding a dagger; the other raised and layed vertical to his neck, grappling slightly, "Nor heaven peep through the blanket of the dark To cry ‘Hold! Hold!’ " The hand pretending to hold the dagger raised sharply, jerking Suboshi back with it as it joined the other holding the neck; a pained expression with furrowing brows gracing younger features, finishing the monologue.
Amiboshi almost wanted to laugh; his brother was very good at acting, especially in plays he enjoyed. But he didn’t have a second to lose; he took a step forward and brought himself into the scene as Macbeth, Lady Macbeth’s husband. A serious look was placed over normally kind features.
Suboshi reacted accordingly; his monologue forgotten and his hands moving to clasp themselves excitedly, " Great Glamis! Worthy Cawdor! Greater than both, by the all-hail hereafter!" He rushed forward and grabbed his twin’s shoulders and brought him forward slighly, "Thy letters have transported me beyond This ignorant present, and I feel now the future in the instant."
Amiboshi swallowed and slid his hands gallantly around Suboshi’s waist, smiling bittersweetly, "My dearest love," Suboshi held back a snicker, "Duncan comes here to-night."
"And when goes hence?" The younger twin shifted slightly in the loose embrace.
"To-morrow, as he purposes." Amiboshi felt his face twitch. Suboshi turned in the embrace and smiled sadistically to the air where his lover could not see him.
"O, never shall sun that morrow see!" He turned back, the feverent look of want placed back onto his face. Slowly, Suboshi raised his hand from Amiboshi’s shoulder and placed it on his twin’s soft, red-tinted cheek.
"Your face, my thane, is a book where men May read strange matters," Nervous fingers, remembering the golden days of the year past, softly caressed the cheek in his hand, eyes locked on forever and grapling at Amiboshi’s.
"Look like the time," The hand, making the older twin’s torso freeze, moved to his neck and squeezed softly, "Bear welcome in your eye…" Suboshi leaned forward oh so slightly, eyes lidding and glased over.
"Subo…" The words died on Amiboshi’s tongue, feeling the reminiscent pleasures of the previous year flood over him. His embrace tightned around the lean waist of his twin brother as he tried to control his emotions.
"Your hand…" His face was so close, the hand on his neck pulling him forward. Resisting the sin was pointless now.
"Your tongue…"
Sin commited.
The meeting of lips was clumsy from lack of practice, but the emotions and pleasuring feelings made up for it. The arms around Suboshi’s waist tightened, the hand on Amiboshi’s neck slid around to perfectly cup the sensitive skin, the lost hand on his shoulder trying to bring himself deep into his twin’s heart.
It seemed a sweet eternity when they parted, almost as slow as they had come. Suboshi moaned as their hips parted as well, the heat singing his inner most desire.
"We…" The first voice that appeared after their forbidden meeting was from Amiboshi, his eyes wide. A hand reached from his twin’s waist to his mouth, brushing the soft pads over his moist lower lip. "We shouldn’t have done that." He whispered, almost horrified.
"You looked like the innocent flower," Suboshi responded in a hoarse whisper, "But I want to be the serpent that is underneith it, coiling its way around you."
Amiboshi’s breath hitched hearing the misguided and twisted alteration of the plays’ lines following the kiss. His younger twin pushed him back a step, his leg snaking its way in between his older brother. A swallowed gasp immited from the depths of his abdomen.
Suboshi’s hand slid back around Amiboshi’s neck and pulled him forward so their faces were only a few inches apart, "He that’s coming must be provided for," Soft fingers played with the fringe of domestic green hair that layered over shocked, confused blue orbs belonging to his older brother.
He nudged him backwards again with his hips and leg, surprised to hear a gasping moan come from Amiboshi; his arms still snaked around his twins’ waist and held there firmly.
"I shall put this night’s great business into my dispatch; which shall to all our nights and days to come," The twins took another step back together, Amiboshi moaning louder.
"Give me reigning and masterdom."
The last step backwards went into the bed, sending both twins over and on to the pale blue sheets and the sqeaking, bouncy matress.
Amiboshi finally found his voice after being submerged in the sin for so long; "Suboshi!" Came the startled yelp, onlooking his situation.
It wasn’t very good.
His twin straddled his hips that sent shocks of pleasure up and down his legs and spine, the heat and want centering between his legs. He knew it was wrong. He knew he shouldn’t be in this position with his own twin brother.
But it was just so tempting. Tempting fate seemed to be a regular hobby for him.
Suboshi had him down good; he began rolling his hips painstakenly slow into Amiboshi and grinned through his own moaning when his twin brother responded by groaning back softly. Barely audible, but still there.
"W-We…" Amiboshi gasped and clenched at the sheets, "P-Please, Suboohhh… shi – Ah!" His head rolled to one side, a blush setting in over creamy tanned skin. "Let’s talk this through, please." He whispered with a whimper.
"Please, no aniki!" Suboshi cried out, falling forward so he was lined up perfectly with his twin brother. He reached out and clasped the balled fist that was planted deeply into the covers for release.
"Please, only look up clear. To alter favour ever is to fear." The panic died down in the younger’s voice, Amiboshi slowly finding comfort in the warmth spread across his body.
His head turned to face the ceiling, which instead was replaced with a poised and ready Suboshi. His lips were glistening in the moonbeams streaming through the open window. Amiboshi had barely noticed it had turned from twilight into evening.
"Please…" Amiboshi closed his eyes and opened his mouth slightly, whimpering.
Hate the sin, love the sinner.
Suboshi smirked at his brother’s response.
"Alright. Leave all the rest to me."
-Owari

Ze Beginning of Pain

2007-09-07T22:04:34Z

So school finally started up, and I gotta say that I was suprised to find out I had two of my art courses in the same semester. It kind of bummed me out since I was hoping I could get it spread out more, but I can't complain. This semester will be a breeze (hopefully) so then I'll have time to rest and recouperate for the next semester ahead. It'll also help me work-wise since I plan to start some time in November.

So for my courses, I got Anthro/Socio/Psycho, Media Art, World Religion, and Visual Art. And then, next semester is: Biology, English, Math and World History. D: I better get something straightened out with my guidance councelor so I don't get the same problem I'm having with this year.

But asides from that, I'm also going to try and get my mask generally made over this weekend alongside buying the fabric for my coat. It'll be doublesided, so that means more money. D: GOD DAMNIT!

*headdesk*

Also, if ya know anyone who'll be going to AC3 as anyone else from Darker than Black, drop me a line! x_x

SCHOOL HAS COME UPON US!

2007-09-04T21:40:15Z

You know that feeling of coming back to school later on to Grade's 11 and 12? That feeling that tells you that you were only away for, what? A long weekend?

I have that feeling right now. D:

ATLEAST I HAVE DOUBLE ART! FUCK YEAH!
<3

Oh, and on a side note, had to throw out my mask. I plan to remake it this weekend, hopefully. And buy the fabric for Hei's coat while I'm on it. x_x

MASK IS ALMOST FINISHED. WOOT.

2007-08-22T00:39:29Z

So I finally got around to making my paper-mache mask for my Hei cosplay. Took a full bloody day to put it on layer by layer... but it is now finish. And it looks primitive, but snazzy. :D I shall probably cover it in a paper mache paste mixed with white glue to smooth out those annoying bumps that formed all over.

Then, I shall FINALLY get around to drawing the skematics for Hei's weapon, and then beg a few extra twenty's out of my old man so I can go out and buy the fabric for his coat. WHICH IS DOUBLE SIDED. AND THUS MORE FABRIC. AND THUS MORE MONE. *weeps* XP

It's days like these that made me wish that I had income of some sort. D:
But oh well, the con is still in two months. I'll manage somehow~ <3

Will also get around to posting pics of the mask when finished!
~~Since I'm assuming it will take another billion years to dry, damnit. D:<~~

NEW LJ LAYOUT

2007-08-14T02:02:10Z

With help from aoi_no_tenshi did I change my LJ profile since it's been bugging me a bit lately. Not too shabby I suppose, but I want to make something better in the future. :3 It'll do good for now.

Water parks are a bitch. D:

2007-08-10T00:46:02Z

Grr, I got dragged off to Mont Cascades waterpark today against my will and nearly caught a cold up in the mountains. D: Sucks hardcore.

On a lighter note, I started planning out my ideas and fixed my pants for my upcoming cosplay of Hei from Darker than Black! I should be on schedule and making his mask by next week, and then eventually saving up enough money to go and get the fabric before school starts.

HOPEFULLY. *facepalm*

Final Fantasy & Kingdom Hearts Live-action Roleplay!

2007-08-04T21:07:34Z

WHEW! I forgot to post this as a matter of fact! XD *dumb*

I attended the FF/KH LARP (Live action roleplay) on the days of July 20th-22nd, and I had A BLAST! There were some bumps along the way but generally everyone was in character and it was awesome. I was cosplaying and being Marluxia for it. <3

One of the funniest parts of the roleplay was when we attempted to perform a battle at night. Everyone was instructed to put a glowstick around their necks (to tell people if their head was still on, sarcastically told) and we proceeded to fight over Jenova. Summary: Cloud got Jenova, went batshit and dropped Jenova, everyone went searching for 'Mother'... Kadaj got Jenova (bad news) so Roxas snuck it out of her hands and nudged Demyx. He goes "PSST, DEMYX, I GOT JENOVA! GO GET THE OTHER ORGANIZATION MEMBERS AND AERIH (whom I had gotten to come to our side via loli persuasion) AND GET OUT OF HERE!"

So Demyx nudged Marluxia (me) and Larxene and we ran off with Aerith into the night.
NO ONE SPOTTED US.

They began going OOC and saying "Hey, serious guys, where ACTUALLY IS the box?"

"Hey... where's Organization XIII and Aerith...?"

"OH SHIIIIT! GET THOSE ASSHOLES!" - Cid.

And so we proceeded to be found and I broke my sycthe in the forest. XD

Below is a video one of the people filmed of our "Cut scene." Ignore me being a douche. >.>

Death Goes By

2007-07-29T17:20:09Z

It was very sudden, and very strange at the same time. It had happened on the Friday I was supposed to attend the Final Fantasy and Kingdom Hearts LARP, and I was told that by the time I would reach the campsite in LaRose forest my aunt would have passed away. It was... strange.

I went through the LARP thinking little of it, but when I got back and was spirited off to Whitby (near Toronto) and saw her open casket, I freaked out. First funeral and all, lots of crying and little things to understand. Staying near her body was so wierd, I was almost expecting her to wake up but she wouldn't. I knew that. I even went so far as to reach out and touch her, but I pulled away once I felt how cold it was.

Three days down there for the wake and the church session (in which I offered to do the Second Reading; I was suprised that I didn't stutter or speed up, and people said I presented it well) and then I was brought back to Ottawa for the burial. Ironically, it was raining when we lowered the coffin.

That was yesterday, and even now it feels wierd, like someone was watching me while I slept. I got so nervous that I had my dad sit beside my bed while I fell asleep. xP

Finished Exams!

2007-06-22T22:12:35Z

EXAMS ARE FINISHED!
WOOT!

Finally I have a chance to kick back and watch some anime, which will be a great deal better than doing homework.

On the flip-side, my mom enlisted me in an art course run by the City of Ottawa that requires me to get a criminal backround check. o_o Makes me wonder, really. It'll be running from 9-4 Mondays to Fridays from July 3rd all the way till July 27th - which means bye-bye summer. ;_; I also plan to find a job in August, which is making me nervous. On the other hand, I'll be getting money from it. Yummy yummy money. <33

Anime North 2007 Photos! (And Updates on AC3!)

2007-06-15T01:35:40Z

W00T! Finally got my friend's album link, so now everyone will know what I look like! *GASP*
~~Not that it maters.~~

Fushigi Yuugi Photoshoot:

http://s134.photobucket.com/albums/q112/Jenna78_photos/Anime%20North%202007/?start=0

I'm the one in the purple and yellow-corded coat with the short brown hair, otherwise known as Amiboshi. <3

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On the side of all this, I'm also planning heavily for AC3, Ottawa's November anime con! I'll be cosplaying as Amiboshi from Fushigi Yuugi, possibly Hei from Darker than Black and Train Heartnet from Black Cat. So far, not much has been said as to what is going on this year, but I'm excited none the less! (Approximately 10 minutes away from my house compared to last year's 10 hours. XD)

Enjoy teh posting! *flees*

SEVERE WEATHER WARNINGS O SHI-

2007-06-08T23:14:54Z

Southern Ontario just got a warning put on for severe weather such as hail, strong winds and tornados. Now, considering where Ontario is, it's not the most likely place to have such weather facaulties. But then again, Montreal got hit by one, so now I'm not sure.

I'm just a bit nervous now, really. DD: I don't want no tornado around me!
*ducks and hides in her bunker*

retro_ryo @ 2007-06-08T18:32:00

2007-06-08T22:44:03Z

Hijacked this from Izuro to try out myself~ So, retro_ryo, your LiveJournal reveals...

You are... 9% unique (blame, for example, your interest in nakahome) and 22% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy yaoi). When it comes to friends you are lonely. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are keen to please. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is conventional.

Your overall weirdness is: 56

(The average level of weirdness is: 27.
You are weirder than 92% of other LJers.)

Find out what your weirdness level is!

So apparently I'm VERY WIERD. XD Epic, I think I enjoy this oddosity~
And I lol'd when it said I was unique because of NAKAHOME.
IT'S CANON DAMNIT! CANOOOOOOON!
(Nakago/Tamahome from Fushigi Yuugi, if anyone's interested. XD)